Question by farida: How can i talk to my mom about teen depression ?
I am in 16 years old, I have very frequent mood swings accompanied by the signs of teen depression. Most of the time I am really depressed but for no reason at all, I wish i could make it go away. I get furious and an enormous rage for the simplest reason like my younger brother just asking for something repetitively…

Before (about a year ago), I had no friends, no self-esteem, no nothing. But recently I transfered classes and started having friends and enjoying myself, that’s when I started to have these depressed feelings. I just feel that it is strange that just when things are starting to get better,I start having these emotions.I am so confused.
Nobody has a clue because I just suffer in silence.

I feel lost. I feel that I have lost myself.. I feel that there’s a huge amount of pain inside me and I can’t figure out its source; severe emotional pain not just frustration just like any teen. I spend the whole day in bed, I am isolating myself, I STRONGLY binge, my relationships with my moms deteriorating because I am losing my nerves in an unbelievable way. I once even got really mad and punched glass and ut my hand !! I wish i could cry; just let it all out. I can’t seem to get myself to cry even though i can feel the tears in my eyes . I can never do it.

I have lost my confidence and self-esteem; I cant stand looking at myself in the mirror, I am fat and ugly. I don’t see the point of trying to do anything. I feel worthless and that nobody wants me in this life. I just don’t want to do anything anymore, I feel that I have no energy at all.

I hate myself and I hate my life and I am only 16 yrs old!!

I hate myself, I really do. I feel that I am sinking real deep and that there’s nothing I can do anymore.

I feel this’s all for ABSOLUTELY NO REASON!! You cant imagine how bad it is…

I lose my nerves and snap at people, in the course of the last week i have gotten into 6 serious fights with different people. I am really starting to hate my mom A LOT !

Sometimes I am very cheerful, cant stop laughing but sometimes I am really really sad and i feel that i dont want to live.

I have this huge amount of anger, fear and sadness that whenever I think is gone comes back after a few days…

These emotions are driving me crazy, so my question is “Is this normal at my age or is there something for me to worry about?”
I don’t know what to do, I feel that my feelings are up to my throat, very close to exploding…
I am starting to hate myself for this, I feel like I am acting like a spoiled brat which totally isn’t like me…

I really hate myself.

Sometimes, it is even difficult to get out of bed for another miserable day. I have researched for the symptoms of adolescent depression and almost all of them apply to me… I don’t know whether it is a normal teen thing or real depression. I know they are not very accurate nor are they a diagnosis but I have taken online tests and they all result in “Moderate/Severe Depression”…

Although I try really hard to put on a happy face,my friends are starting to notice – but my family doesn’t. My closest friend just keeps telling me that i should snap out of it and that I’m not grateful for the life I have, that some people wish to have half what I’ve got..

Nobody knows, not even my parents,I don’t want any family member to know; they will think i’ve gone nuts and also something inside me is intimidated to talk to anybody…

I don’t know what to do, in order to go to therapy my parents have to know but I cant tell them… I feel that there’s absolutely no hope for me but I don’t want to live my whole life this way…
I tried talking to a teacher and it momentarily made things better . But after a while, i started getting really attached to her ; when she’s not around, i just really break down… I even felt like she was more like a mother to me than my own mother. But I don’t know why things backfired, i started hating her LOATHING HER and I can’t even stand to look at her face and she has noticed that.. I feel that my life is so messed up and there’s nothing i can do about it..

I really hope you get to read this.

I am really lost :/

Best answer:

Answer by Catie
I used to self harm and I kept it from my mum for 2 years-but when I told her it was the best feeling and I got help straight away and I’m now seeing a doctor, I’m 15 so younger than you-if I can do it then you can, just tell her everything you just wrote down, if you can’t tell her face to face, then maybe do it by text\phone call\letter\email\get a friend to tell her but whatever you do don’t keep it to yourself x

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